Ready to Fall in Love Again

A love so true, a love that has not lost its meaningevery dripping ends drying up. And as it dries up, it
even through the years seems to suddenly fade. Abecomes a part of you that can't be erased. This is
love she thought would end up in the altar. A lovethe hardest way to learn lessons about life and love.
turned sour after making her fall so deeply. After allYou have to let the pain sink in first, before having the
these years, after all what she has given up, suddenlygolden price. She is trying to cope up and I know how
she found herself all alone - yearning for the love thatpainful it is to her. Heart breaking experiences are
is now slowly drifting away. The pain is still fresh, andintended to be dealt alone. Some may console her, but
she's still wandering on the stage of denial. She wasthe pain still remains inside. This is the sad part of
aware that moving on takes time. The great deal is,parting ways; there are two hurting individuals that are
how painful taking the steps toward acceptance.suffering from loneliness. She could not stand to be
She started playing paintball hoping that all the painalone but in the paintball field she could. Now, playing
would go away. A very fun activity, it was, but still thepaintball becomes her therapy. Healing is a process.
pain still lingers and she feels it. For a while she wouldShe has to take the staircase one at a time, there's no
squeal and shout as the paintball capsule hit her butshortcut to healing. She is on her way to picking up the
suddenly she would come to her senses and realizepieces of herself. She is taking her time. She would
she is in her own. She would reminisce her days withhave to spend a lot of time healing herself. There are
him and suddenly realizes it's all gone. The fondestdifferent areas of her personality that requires time to
times she shared with him. This is the torture uponheal. And soon she will able to find the last piece of
ending a relationship, memories. Moving on is just likeherself and would be able to stand up again. The
wishing to have a dreamless sleep. When everythingmoment she attained the stage of redeeming her
seems to be fine, recalling can ruin it all. Imagining thewhole self, there's a total transformation. There may
pain dripping like the paint, it would hurt as it hits you butbe changes in her manners and thoughts about life.
as it drips, it dries out. Like the paintball which isHowever, a stronger person ready to fall in love again
deliberately shoot by the opponent to win the flag.is on her way. No one can stop her, because she's
Recovery is on its way, because she realizes thatstanding on her best.